Sometimes he bursts my heart with happiness and care

and sometimes

he is stupid

and makes me disappointed

or maybe I am too Scorpio

too deep and

maybe I want to continue my feelings and behavior were I left off many years ago

but

it's something new

I should give it more time

it's just that

I don't know...

If I don't get the response I expect

It tus me off

so

I don't know if he is the red flag

or am I?

You can

بهت

بازسازی

Feelings

فرار به نظرم اکثر آدما یه چیزی توی زندگیشون دارن که ازش فرار می کننبرای هر کسی نسبت به زندگی اون‌ شخص می تونه متفاوت باشه اون مجهولی که باعث فراره خودش شاید یه انرژی باشه برای جنبش اون فرد و جالبیش اینجاست که اون فرار توی هر شخص خودشو متفاوت جلوه می کنه هر کی به روش خودش سعی بر اون فرار یا تطبیق داره حالا علاوه بر اون می دونی کی سختتر میشه؟ وقتی بین فرار و تطبیق دودل بشی وقتی از فرار خسته بشی ولی ترس از تطبیق داشته باشی ترس از اینکه ندونی قدرتشو داری یا نهترس از اینکه انتخاب اشتباهی کنی که رادامه مطلب

Kismet

I don’t mind what happens

Curse or blessing

Heartache

I hate hate hateee it when I'm drunk and chatting with someone, miss understand something and makes my conversation to become unintentionally flirty

داشتم استوری و نوت دوستام و میدیدم تو اینستا که آهنگ اینا میذارن و حالشون خوب نیست اینا

گفتم خدااارو شکرت

که من الان نیستم تو این وضع

و هیچ کسی روز و شبم و بهم نمیریزه!

فقط قسمت ترسناکش اینه که من همینطوریش سخت گیر بودم و به کسی سخت میشد حس پیدا کنم

از الان به بعد دیگه فقط معجزه می خواد

I supposed to be sleepy and tired but I have tons of serotonin in my body ! :) Even seeing him couldn't ruin my mood and I couldn't careless!

Yup I know it now you have Avoidant attachment style and it's stupid of me to think I could fix that the only person that can fix that it's you and probably with the help of your therapist!I did enoughit's unfortunate.. cause you and I could be the perfect match but I can't play games to keep you around that's not me I loved you I' trying to detach now but I don't know why the whole flight my tears were dropping like rain! It was embarrassing!! But I couldn't stop it but it doesn't mean I'm still trying cause I'm not and I won't it's done it was just mouing I guess I was just reminiscing..and you know what's so selfish of you?? I know it's coming from your trauma but you have no right to ignore my presence when I'm there and whenever I leave this country you post I miss youu????what!?? what's the difference?? you ain't there anyways!! stop itlet me live breadcrumbing won't work no more.. ادامه مطلب

It feels great when you see you moved on, there's no one in your head and you live your life

it feels like I'm back to myself again feeling myself doing what I want and what is good for me

no headaches no mixed feelings no confusion

and not caring!
Literally about nothing and no one

but me!

at times it gets a bit boring though tbh !

but there's just peace and it most certainly worth it